First, let’s talk about this time last year.
Around this time, last year, I was about to head back to my place in Vic from a rather melancholy Christmas holidays at home when my mother finally broke me down enough to admit that yes, I was feeling pretty depressed, and yes, I did want to go see a doctor about that. Sure enough, I was clinically depressed, and before I headed home to Victoria I was given a prescription for some meds to start taking and a strong recomendation to link up with a therapist.
Time passed; stuff got a bit better, then a little worse, then better again, then a LOT worse, but slowly I improved. I swapped medications around, started and ended and re-started my relationship with my now fiancee, and moved into my very own, very grown-up apartment with her.
I wouldn’t trade 2012 for anything — I learned a lot about myself and what I can do, and I nurtured a relationship with an amazing, beautiful, smart, loving, talented, fabulous woman, with whom I’ve felt happier and more secure with than I’ve felt in a long time.
But, well… insofar as concrete things to be proud of? To show off to people and to use as physical reminders of my success? I didn’t really do much!
I’ve had a game I’ve been trying to make for 2+ years now that I haven’t really gotten around to. I’ve taken up sewing, but so far haven’t made anything I can actually wear. I’ve taken up baking and cooking, but kinda sorta haven’t done much along those lines in a good while. I’ve had a plan for an awesome comic that hasn’t flourished beyond a quick note on my phone and a million and a half ideas busting around in my head.
Being depressed is DEPRESSING. It should go without saying, but gosh. I just think back to the really low times, and I can feel myself getting all moody and sad and unproductive again. So, this is why I’ve decided to make 2013 an awesome year! I want to be AWESOME all over the place. I want to start that comic, I want to hand-sew a good portion of my wardrobe, I want to cook dinner for my fiancee and bake cookies on the weekend and finally get a fucking game cobbled together.
And I’m gonna record it all here! This will be a place in which I log my triumphs and frustrations, where I share cool links to things, recipes I come up with/adapt, creations I create, rants I need to rant — I want it to be my journal of this year, and when I look at it in January of 2014, I want to go “wow that is a lot of stuff I did”.
So, here I go. Wish me luck, and I hope you follow along with the stuff that you’re interested in, and maybe develop some tertiary interests along the way. This is gonna be an eclectic mix of a blog, since I have an eclectic set of hobbies, haha.