Vanishing Acts

I’m quite good at those, aren’t I?

Fact is, life is busy and hard and stuff.  I won’t bore you with the details, but life threw me a mixture of relationship, professional and mental health problems all at once.  They were really great and super fun to deal with </sarcasm>, but HEY.  WHATEVER, MAN.

However, just because I’ve been not on my computer blogging and having FEELINGS~ everywhere doesn’t mean I haven’t been productive!  In this past month, I have:

  • Finished a Cambie Dress!  It turned out terribly in the bodice and I haven’t actually worn it yet. OTL  But I made it!
  • I made a collared shirt!  Besides the fact that the collar is a little high and I mucked up the placement of the pockets, it’s actually really good!  I know what I’ll need to do to improve the fit, so that is great.  I plan on making another shirt soon — my wardrobe is seriously lacking in the, uhhh… everything department, so every new piece helps.
  • I’ve picked up my guitar again!  It’s going…okay?  I’m not so good at it, but I’m having fun!  It also makes me want to pick up the ukulele, since… welp that is just easy as pie to learn.
  • I’ve been plotting some sort of novella!  It’s really grimdark and I’m not sure where it’s going.  I might drop it, or I might let it stew for a while until I really figure out WHAT I want to write the story about.  I have the characters lined up and the basic premise, but as for the rest of it?  Kiiiiiinda directionless.

In other news, I’m pretty much fushnooked insofar as other computery business goes, because my poor laptop is officially dead.  Well… not officially, but it’s in critical condition.  I opened my computer up for the first time in ages the other night and discovered a giant crack, rendering the screen basically useless!  Basically I am majorly miffed, since this means I HAVE to get a new computer before I go back to school.  Ahhhhh, and I wanted to splurge on beautiful fabrics to work on Gertie’s patterns, too…

Ummm, what else?  On Wednesday I’m making caramel filled cupcakes and decorating them with my sweetheart.  Maybe I’ll talk about that?  Who knows.  Life has just been hard to deal with lately; any obligations are kinda, just… eeuugguhghghh.

So yeah basically: I’m not dead!  I’m not ignoring anyone!  I’m just clamming up under a rock.  Be back eventually (…especially after I fix my computer woes, ugh.)

THIS WAS AN ENTIRELY UNINTERESTING UPDATE AND I HOPE TO DO BETTER IN THE FUTURE, since gosh don’t you people want actually interesting things to hear about?  BLUGH.


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Skyrim ruined my life

Remember when I said I was going to be a real life blogger and blog about things?

But now I’m here, and I’m gonna try a little harder, I promise!

…okay no one really believes that, but you screw you, Pikachu.  Also, I had this joke sitting in my draft box from the last time I tried to start this blog, so man I ain’t even coming up with original material.  OTL  B-but hopefully I’ll make it up to you guys with some talking and sushi photos?  I’ll divide it up into two posts, because it just feels more ~organized~ and I’m all about the organization after cleaning my kitchen today! (Read: girlfriend did most of the work, I passed her things, wiped a few cupboards and looked adorable in bright red lipstick)

…but okay yes moving on now.

I began this month with plans, guys.  Plans of cooking, plans of dressmaking, plans of Gam Mak.  Plans of exercising and organizing, being awesome, feeling great.  It was gonna be awesome.  It was gonna be radical.

Instead, I got sucked into some fuckers’ thief guild, had a moral dilemma over elf racism and fursecution VS freedom to worship Viking Jesus, busted up an illegal drug ring, and accidentally become engaged to a Hagraven after a night of too much mead.

Guys.  I made the biggest mistake of my life, and there’s no going back.

I started playing Skyrim.

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The Plan and what I’m up to for January!

I was kind of vague in my last post, so I’m gonna take this post to elaborate on what my plan is to be awesome.

First off, at the start of every month, I’m gonna have a list of goals, AKA tangible things I want to have completed by the first of the next month (e.g. “I’m going to sew a dress” or “I will release a demo of X game” or “I will have 5k words written for X”).  I’m also going to post in this blog at least once a week to help keep myself on track, and to keep you guys updated!  I’ll probs post more than that just for fun (what’s the use of having a blog if I can’t use it to complain about things?!), but I am committing myself to AT LEAST four posts a month.  Doesn’t sound too bad, huh?

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My Year of Being Totally Awesome

First, let’s talk about this time last year.

Around this time, last year, I was about to head back to my place in Vic from a rather melancholy Christmas holidays at home when my mother finally broke me down enough to admit that yes, I was feeling pretty depressed, and yes, I did want to go see a doctor about that.  Sure enough, I was clinically depressed, and before I headed home to Victoria I was given a prescription for some meds to start taking and a strong recomendation to link up with a therapist.

Time passed; stuff got a bit better, then a little worse, then better again, then a LOT worse, but slowly I improved.  I swapped medications around, started and ended and re-started my relationship with my now fiancee, and moved into my very own, very grown-up apartment with her.

I wouldn’t trade 2012 for anything — I learned a lot about myself and what I can do, and I nurtured a relationship with an amazing, beautiful, smart, loving, talented, fabulous woman, with whom I’ve felt happier and more secure with than I’ve felt in a long time.

But, well… insofar as concrete things to be proud of?  To show off to people and to use as physical reminders of my success?  I didn’t really do much!

I’ve had a game I’ve been trying to make for 2+ years now that I haven’t really gotten around to.  I’ve taken up sewing, but so far haven’t made anything I can actually wear.  I’ve taken up baking and cooking, but kinda sorta haven’t done much along those lines in a good while.  I’ve had a plan for an awesome comic that hasn’t flourished beyond a quick note on my phone and a million and a half ideas busting around in my head.

Being depressed is DEPRESSING.  It should go without saying, but gosh.  I just think back to the really low times, and I can feel myself getting all moody and sad and unproductive again.  So, this is why I’ve decided to make 2013 an awesome year!  I want to be AWESOME all over the place.  I want to start that comic, I want to hand-sew a good portion of my wardrobe, I want to cook dinner for my fiancee and bake cookies on the weekend and finally get a fucking game cobbled together.

And I’m gonna record it all here!  This will be a place in which I log my triumphs and frustrations, where I share cool links to things, recipes I come up with/adapt, creations I create, rants I need to rant — I want it to be my journal of this year, and when I look at it in January of 2014, I want to go “wow that is a lot of stuff I did”.

So, here I go.  Wish me luck, and I hope you follow along with the stuff that you’re interested in, and maybe develop some tertiary interests along the way.  This is gonna be an eclectic mix of a blog, since I have an eclectic set of hobbies, haha.

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